Recipe.

If I could numb myself for long enough, automotize every single action on until it becomes a painless habit, one day I will wake up, already in the perfect state, in the perfect world that I’m trying to build…

I just have to endure until that time comes. I just needs to endure. I need strength.

I need to say:

Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything I knew.

But the only way I know to numb myself is too disappear from here and appear elsewhere. I can only live in lies for so long, I wish I could, forever.

I’m not ready to hear yet, I’m not ready to open my eyes.

Just a little longer…

In silence.