Archive for September, 2008

My Blog is The Lonliest Place.

Posted in Random Randomness by Randomique with tags on September 3, 2008 by Randomique Jester

It’s true.
It was lost in the vast intervals of the Live Journal community.
Insignificant, unnoticed but ingenious; one of a kind.

I miss the days my bothered little mind conjured up ways to chase people away;
I was not afraid to be alone and not fit in.
Now I fall between the cracks to match that perfect mold of society.
Yet I do not belong.

My melancholy was a way to channel my expressive personality, my sprouting uniquality, which is now subdued.
I loved being strange, quiet and mysterious.
I was a fascination. Now I’m plain.
And yet people still find a trace of interest in me.

I want to shrink back to the time of loneliness,
but I can’t.
Some things never change: I don’t appreciate my current situation until
it is well out of sight; and when it is, I miss it while it’s beyond my grasp.

The things around me have dumbed me down. I have been my own demise in letting myself diminish. I used to evolve daily with my curiousity alone.
But 16, has passed like it never was but a vague, bewildering dream.

I wonder if my happiness had made me boring, if, surely, my loneliness made me odd. Would I trade it for my former identity?
Perhaps, but the key word here is ‘former’; it is then and not now, nor will it ever be.

Like my blog, lost in the vast intervals of time. Insignificant, vague; one of a kind.

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