Recipe.
If I could numb myself for long enough, automotize every single action on until it becomes a painless habit, one day I will wake up, already in the perfect state, in the perfect world that I’m trying to build…
I just have to endure until that time comes. I just needs to endure. I need strength.
I need to say:
Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything I knew.
But the only way I know to numb myself is too disappear from here and appear elsewhere. I can only live in lies for so long, I wish I could, forever.
I’m not ready to hear yet, I’m not ready to open my eyes.
Just a little longer…
In silence.
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